What I am really trying to say is that the pain exists regardless of you. It is not a matter of perspective. It is not a result of your improper attitude towards life. Even if you change yourself and the way you think it will still be here. It will not disappear if you surround yourself with positive people, think about nice things and smile more. The pain just is, tattooed on your soul. It is an integral part of life. You can refuse to see it, you can deny it, but you can’t make it go. It is not in your power. You are not a god.
Before you move on with your life perhaps you would feel better if you admit it and accept it. Show some dignity. The pain will be your constant companion anyway.